Although I'm desperately homesick, New York has been fun so far. There's still a lot of kinks I need to work out with school and housing and stuff but I'm hoping that it will all work out in the end. It's so stressful right now, my hair just falls out in clumps whenever I shower. RCK's like my oxygen tank, takes me away from all the shit I worry about during the day.

Headed off to Flushing for like the 3982743th time. Was supposed to meet my mom and aunt for dinner but ended up going too early so I just browsed around all the shops. I know it's gonna sound so country girl ish but city girls are so different from suburban girls. I feel left out and almost intimidated but I know I won't let it get to me. Can't wait to make friends and meet RCK.

We saw 2 apartments and we ended up choosing the 2nd one in Fresh Meadows. The neighborhood's quiet and clean and there's a lot of shops in a walkable distance so I'm happy with the location.

I'm in over my head with my school right now, I feel like I'm running into a concrete wall repeatedly for days on end. When I read all the articles and reports on it being the worst year to graduate for the class of 2009, I didn't believe it but now I'm FEELING every worst part of it. $28k tuition isn't falling out of the sky and I'm being rejected for loans left and right. My friends have lost hope and have given up brand name schools and are instead heading to the community colleges for the time being. My best friends gave up Julliard and Princeton for a CC last week, I'm pretty sure I'm going to be heading down the same path if a miracle doesn't happen.

God bless Obama.

I can't wait for the stress to be over. I'm so thankful for RCK I could cry.

Over and out.

- Risk