Why is it so hard to maintain guy friends?

Steve had been bugging me occasionally to hang out with him so I invited him to see Eclipse with me and my friends if we ever went again. I told my friends and they got interested thinking it was a date and asked me about him. So I showed them his facebook and they were all like `DAMN YOU GOT GOOD TASTE` and shit like that. Like I'll admit he's cute but that's only because I'm a sucker for Asian hair. >:

So now they have all these plans to stick us together and shit and I don't even want to date him. ;__;. Like for one I've known him for so long and he's younger than me. He knows a lot about my past too that I'd rather just forget about and move on but if he brings it up, that would be fucking awkward.

Idk, I see Steve as more of a friend than someone to date. Bl

We got in a MSN call with him and made plans to see Vampires Suck on the 18th if he could make it. I wanna see the movie but I don't want him to come cause holy shit I'm gonna slit myself. I blush so fucking easily and I know my friends would find a way to make me blush too. I don't want him getting the wrong idea too.

I know it's partly my fault too that they're so excited cause when we were looking at his facebook pictures, they found so many ways to make me blush. I can't fucking control it ;__;. Fuck my life. Later on, we started talking about Stevens cause Em knows one too and he's cute too so I was all like `What's with all the cute Stevens?` and they gave me the most excited looks. Facepalm. Major facepalm. Fuck me for being a sucker for Asian hairs. Fuck me.

How the fuck am I supposed to get out of this. :C

Someone halp ;__;!

-Kuku

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