E R O C K T I O N

Monday, November 15, 2010

My lifes just been getting alittle more weirder and weirder. I don't know what to believe anymore.
My mind says one thing, but my eyes tell me another.
This is been on my mind lately, and i cant seem to keep it in.
Yesterday (sunday) i was on my dad's memorial. I was roaming around the cemetery after i finished praying to my dad. I looked at random tombstones feeling so sorry for people. People
dying at 19 years old, 13 years old, i even saw an 8 year old passed away buried next to his dad.

I was roaming around for a good 15 minutes (i was listening to music on my phone, and about 5 songs played, so im assuming 15). Suddenly i think i heard a little kid laugh when i was listening to musicon my earphones. I didnt remember hearing a kid laugh in this song.. so i got alittle goosebumps. Another song went by, and i sorta forgot about it.
at the cemetery there was a river like body of water.
I was walking on the ledge of the water. and there was a random ripple in the water. I didnt see
anything fall so i thought it was weird.. i looked closer, and a quick glimpse i swear i saw a kids face, and jerked away from the ledge. (kid, but not like little, he looked like he was around 14? i was to scared to examine..) I never even
seen this kid before. i got so fucking scared, i walked away casually to the truck acting like nothing happened when my sister called me. my
grandma was left at my dad memorial and my sister and gramps were in the truck already.

the next day (today), we get a letter from vietnam.
my cousin (?) passed away. drowned when he was swimming . they attached a picture for us to remember him.
i swear this kid looks like the kid i saw in the water.
i got fucking paranoid..

I didn't wanna tell anyone from my family what i saw yesterday at the cemetery. I'm to scared too.. and hopefully this was just a freak thing. I don't know what to believe.
Ghost? bullshit..(?) random coincidence? maybe.. but i have no idea.
i'm not telling you to believe me, but i did not lie.
This had just been bugging me to the point where i try to lie to myself i didnt go to the cemetery yesterday, and that i just dreamt it.

ugh..

man i also found out today when my cousin mai was home from school sick today that 2 black
guys came in her house and beated her robbed the place o-o.
holy fuck.

take me away from this state..
jay.

edit 11/16
and now i find out my girlfriend's house got robbed.
what the fuck kind of generation are we living in.

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